I can’t believe I’m writing about your first day of Kindergarten. It just doesn’t seem possible. I can still remember snapshots frozen in my mind of rocking you as a newborn…I can’t believe 5 1/2 years have passed. As a baby I NEVER put you down. You were always in my arms. Your baby swing, bouncy seat, and crib were only good for collecting dust. We would gather with friends and family, and I would hog you to myself. I couldn’t get ENOUGH of you, and today I was forced to let go. I couldn’t shelter you any longer.
We pulled to the red light at “the big road” as you call it, and while we were stopped I said a prayer aloud to calm both of our nerves. In that moment that I was begging Him to be with you today, I was reminded how inferior I am. I can only love you and protect you so much. We serve a God that loves you 1,000,000,000 times more than your Daddy and I possibly can….and that blows my mind. I literally cannot grasp it.
We pulled into the school, you proudly walked in your classroom, and didn’t look back. You made Daddy and I SO PROUD. As I walked out wiping my uncontrollable tears, there was a peace in me knowing you were going to be okay….because HE is always with you- and YOU know that.
I will only be able to hold you on my hip so much longer, you probably won’t let me call you “Honey” or “Sweet Girl” too much longer, and I can only ease so much pain, but He will be with you forever- in every situation and His healing is unlimited. Throughout all my love, cuddles, and mothering I pray that I always do my most important job- raise you to love Jesus with your whole heart and turn to Him for everything. That I can learn to back away, and always make Him the superhero in your life… that I quit hogging you, and turn you completely to Him.
You had an great first day…I think you were a little overwhelmed and in shock, but you did great! Your class is full of little boys, but you’re used to that, and I’m sure you’ll have them playing Prince & Princess on the playground in no time. One of your goals for tomorrow: listening for your name at pick-up :) I love you, Honey! I know you are going to have a great year.
All my Love,